Soon, this little girl would grow on me. I would carry her around, she was like my own little personal doll. We got a little older, i would make her play school. I would read her books and make her tell me what happened in those said books. Her reading comprehension was not so hot, ( she never really did get that, as she still can't read and let it sink in .. ;p ) but man oh man did I try, over and over again. I would do her hair and burn her head countless times with the curling iron ( a little pay back? hmm...)
Then we got a little more older, I had a new infatuation with music, not music a 7 year old should ever be listening to, hip hop music, with many curse words and lyrics that neither one of us quite got-( at that time hah ) but she listened to it and danced, and we sang and made up silly dances. I would drive her and her friends around town, because she thought I was cool, and my car was cool, and my music was WAY cool...
While I was busy in college myself, having a baby, getting married, having a baby diagnosed with Autism, we grew apart. She was doing so well for her self, a cheerleader, a social butterfly, doing awesome in school ( besides the reading comprehension of course haha ) and living her teenage life.
My getting a divorce, and love for photography would soon throw us back together. She was there for me, who would have thought, that little, red , squirmy baby that I had ordered back to babyland 18 years ago, was now there for me . She comforted me through hard times,moved me and Ava into her room, listened to me whine and cry when a certain someone would log off without telling me goodnight, many many late night drives to just about anywhere in southwest PA. Oh, and how I love our hours of sitting at Eat N Park sharing food, drinking endless cups of coffee with a side of whipped cream...ok many sides of whipped cream... who can forget our trips to just about every "on the lawn" pens game. She encouraged ME to not look back , look forward, don't give up on what I wanted and to smile.. a lot.
She endured me making her go outside in 6 inches of snow and 10 degree weather, because I just had to have snow pictures, and wearing sweaters in 90 degree weather because Iam missing fall like pictures, to me ordering her around, outfit changes, where to stand, how to stand, how to part her lips....but hey..she listened, unlike some little 4 year old that I have to chase and beg, this beautiful adult listens to me, and lets me go at my own pace.
All the while I do have to endure her being overly critical about herself and asking me if I am using my " fat lens" and begging for pics 10 mins after we get home from a photo shoot...oh but she listens and doesn't run around :)
Sam is blessed with the gift of motivation, if she wants it she gets it. She dreams big, and has now started on a whole new path in life. She sent in photos from one of our photo shoots to ( forgive me, I am waiting on details from her ) the Miss Pennsylvania pageant and is being considered. Even to be considered, is such an honor. She heard from them, got paper work and is working on sponsors.
I am so proud of her, she has went from this , a shy, bashful girl in front of the camera, to this amazingly confident woman in front of the camera..
I will always be there for you Sam, good luck and never stop following your dreams! So glad Sissy didn't "put you back" !! ♥
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