Thoughts this morning

We are enjoying ourselves here in Uniontown. Well..Aves and I are, I can only speak for ourselves, I think Zach is ok. He doesn't like Uniontown =/ But this is my home, my town, I am so comfortable here. I don't feel comfortable at his families house. Its like I am visiting 24/7. Here, the house I grew up in, while its not mine, there is a level of comfort. I cooked dinner last night and had no worries about anything, no worries of someone getting mad because I dropped a chicken chunk on the counter, no worries about how long it took, or what to do with the left overs.

I am not saying its BAD staying with his family, I am so grateful, but I think its just obvious that I would be more comfortable in my own home. Thats just how life works. But being on edge for a month straight, and always worrying about how im going to feed my child, when is the kitchen available, when is the washer and dryer available, staying out of the way..is quite stressful.

So it is nice to relax. Sleep has been rare. HAve not been able to sleep that well, my sheets on my bed..ugh. The bottom sheet won't stay on, and it drives me crazy. It is so warm though. I love putting the heat on, and shutting the door :) Ahhh..though then I usually have to open the window because I went overboard.

On to something more important. Ava is sick. Terrible cough, runny nose. It scares me. I start panicking when she is sick. Thank goodness she rarely gets sick. Although it has only been a couple months since she was sick last, but before that it had been a year, maybe more! I don't like it. I feel helpless. I keep thinking I should take her to the ER, but I don't think its that bad ...yet. Giving her Childrens Mucinex. Well, I try to give it to her. ITs the meltaways, little granules in a packet that I have to put on her tongue. She promptly throws it up when *I* give it to her. Now, when Zach does it..she takes it pretty well.. She now asks for him to give her the medicine. She doesn't want me to. Bah. Kids..right? She has terrible eating problems, so medicine? Ugh. Its awful.
I can't deal with it, I just want her better.

I think I am going to make Lasagna today. I made chicken tacos last night, there is a lot left over, but I guess I will still make the lasagna. I actually like cooking. I used to not. I cant wait to get my own place, and cook every single day. I am going to meal plan, have my meals all planned out for the week. I just wish Aves would eat.

I also wish the apartment people I keep calling, getting a machine, and leaving a msg..would call me back.

Talk about a post filled with randomness.