The homeless lady talks some sense into me

So, I had just dropped Zach off at his base in Seattle and made my way back to the hotel we stayed at. My cell was about dead, and I had no where to go and my flight wasn't for 7 hours. I decided to go back into the hotel and find a plug to charge my phone ..which was quite hard to do, finally i found one in a little area in the front lobby. There was a couch and two chairs, but my phone wouldn't reach to them so i sat on the floor in the corner, holding my phone while it charged. Sat on the floor, in this busy airport hotel..with my bags and my head in my hands as i choked back tears thinking of how I just left the love of my life standing in a parking lot , knowing I wouldn't see him for a very long time. I was hating everything, I was sad..tears streaming down my face as everyone who walked by gave me this *look* ..and kept their distance. I was sitting in this strange city, thousands of miles from home and my babies, just a handful away from the love of my life, but couldn't reach out to either of them. I so sad. I was so ANGRY...how could he...how could I? How could I let myself go through another goodbye, this one more painful than the last, how could I ever fall so in love that it would hurt THIS bad to be apart from that person...I was hating everything, and cursing the happy couples and families that passed by me, the man cuddling his baby in the corner, the loud guy on the cell phone who was obviously a well off defense attorney discussing his case for all the world to hear, and eventually the lady who came over to me and asked me to get off the floor and sit nxt to her on the couch, that she knows that floor was hard and uncomfy. NO THANKS, dont you know my phone is my only lifeline and the cord will not reach to the damn couch, and i must have it in my hands JUST in case *he* texts me? I actually politely forced a smile, and told her no thanks and noticed she was carrying about 7 or 8 little cloth shopping bags filled with what looked like clothes and other sorts of odds and ends. She had a teenage girl with her who went over to the computers and logged into facebook. The lady sat there for awhile on the couch, while i sat next to her on the floor, head in hands continuing to hate everything about my life at that moment.

She then asked me the dreaded question..."is everything alright sweetheart?".....is everything alright?? Uhm no everything is just TERRIBLE...."yeah, im fine..everything is just fine" i said through tears. She kinda laughed and told me how it sure didnt seem like it! We got to talking and I opened up to her ..and told her all about Zach...my babies...and we talked and talked, and came to tell me she was homeless with her daughter...that they live from hotel to hotel, and she hadnt seen her little 3 year old in two months or so. She was really sick and threw seizures and her children would laugh her and make fun as she seized...she had been in several several bad relationships, and one very abusive. Her oldest son was involved in gangs and had been in and out of jail....her daughter that was with her now had gotten them kicked out of their most recent apartment for violence against her, her own mother! And there she was still smiling, talking about how she couldnt wait for midnight to hit so the money would be in her bank and she could get her and her daughter a room for the night out of the rain.
We bonded over the past abusive relationship, and she told me many of her own horror stories and i shared mine. then she goes on tot ell me how she had it SO good with her last fiance..but she didnt know how to be treated right, and she pushed him away. She would do things to test him and see how far things would go and she ruined it. That sure struck a cord.

After over an hour of talking it was time for me to catch a shuttle to the airport so i could wait for my plane, and as i was leaving she told me..honey you have a great life! you have no worries, enjoy it!! She blessed me and told me to have safe travels. She even took my name to find me on facebook, and I sure hope she does one day.

She sure did make me realize just how lucky I am, I have a wonderful man in my life and two beautiful children. We dont have to go stay in a hotel to get out of the rain, and we dont carry our belongings in little cloth bags, we are all mostly healthy...I am for sure blessed, and oh so lucky.